I've been through a lot in life.
None of which I care to talk about.
One thing I know is, having a personal experience with Jesus Christ can and will heal whatever your hurt. There are plenty of excuses for people not to believe or not to want to. Everything from the hypocrites to why would God do this or that or the Bible is this or that. Whatever I've heard all kinds. I use to give all kinds myself.
First and foremost I follow Jesus Christ, not anyone else from any church or religion. Sure there are hypocrites (actors). They are not my problem or yours.
Second a nice little sinners prayer will not save your soul from hell. Sorry!
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